♥ ty,生日快乐! ♥

今天是庭宇的生日...
29th下午四点多,skythien就载了我,veenn,ty,goh一起到槟城的gurney...（晴和文都不去>_<）
我们到gurney已是6pm了...meet了比我们还早到的elwin...
姐姐就在那里闹"饿"!由于我们的'avatar'是在6.20pm开始的...
所以我们也没有什么时间去吃东西了,只能order newyork burger进戏院吃了...

太多人排队买东西了,我们进场时还是迟到了一点点...=(
在戏院里啃burger还真难受,尤其是我的牙齿前天早上跌倒敲到...
咬burger时还真是痛...haix~
avatar的确不错...但2个小时++，坐到我的腰有点酸,屁股有点痛咯...
当我们看完avatar时已是9.xxpm 了...

看完戏,我们商量着我们的晚餐...
我们整堆人还真没主见呢...站了不知多久都还没有结论...
嘻嘻!最后就决定了到pizza hut 去!
惨!痛苦的回忆又开始了...他们还真是变态!
tabasco和胡椒粉倒了又倒...好像没有感觉似的...
但今天就没有像上次那么恶心了...哈哈!
pizza时间完了...
我的肚子已经涨了,但姐姐还不满足，还要珍珠奶茶...
啊！！我已经不能耐了啦...
之后回到了gurney...
secret recipe已经关店了,
没办法咯..本来打算要买蛋糕的...
情急之下就买了starbucks的小蛋糕...
希望庭宇不介意啦...XD elwin的一番心意嘛..

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当！当！
玩闹时间到了~
我们还不打算回家呢...
就这样去了什么paradise的...沙滩...!!
哈哈!当然是玩人咯,难道次次去那边都是坐着闲聊咩?
本来就打算玩skythien的,但最后不知怎的,target竟然变成了ty...LOL~
连我也下水了还拉他不下水...失败失败...~
不知是我还是姐姐,在拉他期间还爪到他...可怜~



elwin和goh就好啦...
两个坐在一旁看热闹...都不帮我们...>_<
玩了不知多久, 我们四个,我,姐姐,ty和thien终于舍得上岸了...
拖着粘粘的脚,还沾着沙的,一步一步走到车旁去解决...
可怜thien的车罢了...呵呵!
难忘的一晚...

哈哈! 生日快乐!!庭宇...

♥ 终于唱到k了! ♥

等了n个星期...
我渴望已久的k终于等到了!哈哈!

今天真是'幸运'啊...
早上6am睡,我竟然能在12.30pm起身...呵呵!
一起身就回了晴几封msg...
可惜啊~!我的晴竟然不能和我们出门...

原本的计划呢,
是1.30pm在cs聚...看完2.45pm的avatar就去走走,然后唱k，然后就去找汉川他们的...
已经是好长好长的日子没有见到可爱的他们了...
满怀期待的...哈！

谁知，
我们到了cs,就到朱师傅去吃早+午点,,,
我的chees-y饭真是太难啃了,
吃到来已来不及看2.45pm的场了...
算,我们三个长不大的就决定看了4pm的alvin & the chipmunks!

看着那些小可爱唱歌,
突然有股冲动想唱k呢!
结果就看完戏,和瑶,文去吃了一餐,
就到cs外去找taxi...哈哈!
我们都是头一次在sp搭taxi哦...
我们三个傻瓜本想到black box去高歌一场的...
哪知啊...真是笨...><
black box没那么早开啦!
我们到了那里...看到几个lala zai，有一个还衣衫不整...
啊!救命啊!
没有交通,我们只好傻傻的站在那里,向学优求救了...
好彩~他没有见死不救...
很快的,他就到了,还把我们送到k-box...哈哈!

在k-box，我们唱了足足两个钟的歌...
我今天开不了声,走了好多音...
瑶和文就很厉害,文就连“为了你而活”都能唱得起...佩服佩服!
不知怎的,我和瑶在那里就肚子痛,,,
很难受...
我们唱了很多歌...
"单身情歌"也是我们的挚爱...哈哈!
我们点的都是那些怪怪的,很好玩的歌...
高音到我们三个女生都唱不起...=p

好玩好玩!
我真的好像再去唱k啊...和同样的伴,唱回同样的歌...^^

♥ i miss u too ♥

25th dec...i had received a facebook msg tht was sent by her...
honestly,i couldn't find any reason for why should i get mad on her anymore for now...
i miss her...miss her badly...she was my best friend that accompany me for over times n times in my secondary school's time...3 of us...wen,me n amber were the 3 closest friends while we r in form4 n form5...she had gv me a lot of good memories in my high school's life...yet,there was also some "accidents" tht hurt-ed me badly...i shouldn't remember all of these,n i should 4gt all bout these,but i couldn't...

hell yeah,i had make u feel upset...bcause of the trip...tht time my emotion was seriously out of my control...remembering the time in the trip,i was so emotionally n helpless...i dun even know how was the things happened around us...but it had jz get into my mind...n tht time i began to lose control...i knew something that i shouldn't know...altho it wasn't about me,n not related to me,but as a friend,i was like poured by a tong of cold water...suddenly felt like i was an outsider...u r my best friend,but u suddenly bcome as a stranger..it makes me hurt-ed a lot...

you r rite...Christmas is a season to remember the good times we had...
ur msg had remind me n bring me over the past...the times tht we spent for entertainment...
we used to laugh out loudly in the class,tuition n even inside school...we jokes all the times..playing silly things!yea!tht's rite...we r playing silly things all the times in school n even wif our dearly teachers!remembering encik tan kim siang n encik tan choon piau was the 2 teachers who owez play wif us when we r in 5.3...we use to 'shoot' teacher wif some stupid ideas n topics...HAHA!we like to play tht isn't it?n our form teacher,puan salwiyah had taking so much care for us,when we r in the chemistry lab,we weren't paying attention all the lessons,but she jz treat us well...i miss our past...!

"i thought our friendship were strong and firm but it doesn really show the results in the end."
you r wrong...i stil blieve tht our friendship were strong n firm...u can think tht im too naive to say out these words bcuz im the one who started to ignore u as well...n u can also think tht im the stupid tht seems like don't forgive or accept u for over long time...n yet,im just a coward...

tht's no way for u,u shouldn't take the move to put ur ego down,bcause both of us having the same ego,we r both egoistic...i know im not as brave as u to put all these down...friends come n go,tis is wat you told me last time...tht time i was curious tht why cant u jz put some confident in our friendship?why you want to say those things?now i get it...thr is no doubt for a person to say out these words...bcause it is no way for us to maintain our friendship until the end of our life...therefore,we should appreciate wat we have now...n we shouldn't start any wars wif our dearly friends...friends cant last long...we should tolerate wif each other if we truly friend wif each other...
i had tried so hard to forget u,but i failed...during my free time,i like to look at my phone,looking at our school days' pic...we were so vain enuf to take pic all the time...we wont lose any chance to take pic using our phones...in class,in tuition,in school...we did it all the time...we also being called as LESBIAN...haha!cant other ppl understand how close r we?n yet..3 of us r just 'pretty' enough to get into the camera..!
n we like to ignore(boycott la) ppl tht we don't like,gossiping all the times is also one of our hobbies...we hv so many hobbies ya...n as i remember,u like 'blink blink' accessories...

hope tht both of us also dint change much after the one year period...
we had ord lose contact for over 1 year,is it?but,i hv strong feelings tht we r stil the ARE all the time...haha!wat a childish person...jz living in the past,cant get thru the realistic...*laughing at myself*

oh ya...it had been a long time i dint visit to ur blog,n i had 4gt ur blog's name...i was so busy to catch up my games as last time when u know me....im addicted to ran AGAIN...lvling is the only mission in my life...

im asking myself repeatly for the reasons why i write all of these,especially write it in eng...
u know tht my eng is the worst among us...n i was like a china girl who hate eng much as how u hate chinese...but...im here to tel u tht...
i wrote all of these is just for you...i know tht wil b thousands of mistakes,no matter is grammar or words...

ok...i gv up..gv up for my ego,gv up for myself...
i admit tht i had miss u badly too...friends come n go,i nvr suspect how can we been thru all of these,n i wont hoping for any good news such as being friend bek wif u...
goodluck...thanks for giving me good memories n i wil try to rmb all the silly things n fun tht we had...

♥ 一个人的夜晚 ♥

姐姐去了KL，这几天我都是一个人呆在家的...
房间的灯坏了,由于我不想有求于爸爸,到现在我还是天天活在天昏地暗之中...
就等着看看我的眼睛几时坏吧...
天天就这样躲在房间,上网,聊天,打机的...都不知时间过得多快...
还以为呢,姐姐去了KL，我可以过点正常的生活...
哈!还是不能!
我的生活就是日夜不分的了...
日当夜,夜当日...
天天7am睡,4pm起身...不知应该说规律还是有问题...

一个人的晚上,加上灯坏了...
好暗,好寂寞...
但我就是喜欢这样的生活...
没有人打扰...
音乐越调越大声...
大到不能再大了还是觉得不够炸...
脑子里不停的浮起一些些的回忆...
歌曲,音乐真的能盖过一切...？

与世隔绝的感觉真的很好...
无忧无虑?
朋友邀约出门,本以为以我的性格一定会去...
哪知...
和妈妈提起,她就常常摆出一副不可一世的样子...
看了就厌...!
算!我可以呆在家的...
就当你要的宅女吧...！

♥ 平安夜 ♥

12月24号晚上...大家都是在干什么呢?
人在sp，没法啦...哪都不能去...
只能呆在家当'宅女'...

姐姐去KL庆祝了...
又有很多人到槟城倒数...
听着他们一个个的plans...
感觉上我好像真的变成了宅女哦...

12am...
当人人都在高高兴兴地玩,喊,闹时,
我在干嘛?
我不就是开着电脑,在ran里放烟花咯...
lv低能干嘛?就只能在小pt里祝来祝去...
1am关了游戏,
天啊!
我错过了好多好多的好戏啊!
川他们竟然加进了好多好多的人...
在热闹的玩闹...
当然,当中有不少的人都是我一直想找的，但又不敢找的...=(
没缘和他们玩闹,算了吧...

家人都没有庆祝圣诞节的习惯...
不用说一家人出门逛,就连要完完整整的坐下来吃顿饭也难...
别人的圣诞节,
我却在家里玩自闭,玩情绪..！
可悲~

♥ 玩线上游戏 ♥

惨!最近又玩回ran online了,
不止这样,
我们还玩了gun bound,gogoracer...
平时玩fb都已经很浪费时间了,现在加上online games，一定不得了!

以前就有前科的了...
沉迷于ran，已经不是第一次了...
当他们都赞成要玩时,
我已经在想着后果了...

以前可以说...
只要有'乱'，
我可以不去补习,不上课,不睡觉...
不停的去拼!
那种生活真的很废!

骂也骂过了,吵也吵过了...
可以讲因为'乱'，差点点就家破了...
以前朋友约出门也好,
因为我要玩'乱'，我都不断的拒绝他们...
每天沉迷于游戏之中...
知情人士都会觉得我siao的,
但一旦让我碰到这种事情,我真的会控制不了自己...

好不容易,
我离开了'乱'已有两年时间了...
现在要我玩回,
还真是高兴...!
同时也在担心着自己会变回以前的那个'诗婷'!!

♥ 单身的感觉! ♥

姐姐又在醉了...
独自一个人躲在厨房喝红酒...
她喝不到半罐就pm我的fb，叫我下去...
哈!原来是叫我下搂去喝红酒...
喝了几口,我便上楼去了...

我在想啊...
拍拖真的是很多麻烦啊...!
我还是比较喜欢单身的感觉...
我喜欢做什么就做什么...
交几多男性朋友都无所谓,根本没有人会在意...
喜欢和朋友出门就出门,喜欢和男生聊天就聊天...

可能我的个性就比较男性化吧...!
但我并不是属于没人要的那种类型哦...
和我玩暗示,明示的人也不是完全'零'的...
就只是我从来就没有做好准备去接受一段恋情...

单身不好吗?
我又不是没有喜欢过人...
只是我很容易的抽出自己,从不让自己越踩越深...
我知道喜欢一个人的痛苦...
我也不想要面对这类型的痛苦...
我不希望自己会有这一切的烦恼...

很多人都问过我,
以我的资格,不可能单身吧!
我很想告诉他们...
我曾经想试试看,
但,
眼看我身边的朋友和姐姐,
常常为了恋情搞得自己都垮了...
我除了当一个辅导者,我还能做些什么呢?
我不想重蹈复策...
我跟不想活在痛苦中...

幸福和辛苦就只是在一线之差,
我宁愿做个懦弱的人,我也不愿去挑战自我...
我可以有超人的胆量去玩一些刺激游戏，看一些恐怖片,做一些人不敢做的事,
但我真的不想谈恋爱....
单身是我的选择...

可能别人会觉得我很奇怪,
但其实不需要这么想的,
我就只是喜欢单身,
有时搞搞暧昧也不错啊!♥♥

♥ 爸!你到底要我怎样? ♥

我还以为以你的个性,你会放我走...

上个星期,当我还拿不定主意要不要去johor时,我就是想到这个家,这个地方,我才鼓起勇气,狠下心要到johor工作的...
姐姐说得没错,爸爸一向来就不太喜欢舅舅那一方,又怎么可能让我去呢?
我还天真的以为只要我好声好气的跟你商量,应该不会成问题...
反正我呆在家不也只是坐在电脑面前,成日无所事事...
与其被你一直'念'，我还不如去闯闯,或许可以找到我要的生活...

那天我无意间和你提起我要去做工,你没有反对我找工,但你就是不要我去johor...
好啊..反正你都爱理不理,那我就不去嘛...
隔一天,妈咪不在家时,我才叫你一声'爸!'，你就提起我要去johor的事情...
无端端的,你还射出一句'你去了就不用回来!'
干!你那么激动干嘛?
现在爽咯...
我不叫你'爸',而且成天就呆在家...
我不去做工,那就等你养我了...
妈咪讲,既然你不给我去做工,那就等明年retake吧..!
哈哈!达成协议...

读书好吗?
新年不还是要回家...
爸...难道你就没有想到我新年又会怎样被无理对待吗?
我甘愿去johor...至少舅舅他们会给我自由!

♥ 18岁 生日前夕 ♥

嘻嘻!
生日前一天,12月1号...
很感谢我的朋友...
我姐,晴,喜明,庭宇,daniel,sky thien,elwin,还有daniel的一个朋友...
陪我渡过一个难忘的生日前夕...♥♥

我们去玩skate,还有看了new moon!!
虽然对戏是有点的失望,
但在skate是的确是很好玩...^^

难忘...
是指很多方面啦...=X
我终于会自己学走了!
不错不错!虽然跌倒的次数也不少,但还蛮刺激的...
不停的跌倒...痛死人了啦...>_<
过了两天还是有很多的瘀青...

在skate时,还有一个美女主动邀我和她一起玩咧...
她还蛮pro的...
但很paise啦...我就连拉着喜明他们都会害他们跌倒了,
哪好意思和美女一起玩啊?>_<

玩接火车...
很好玩,很刺激...
但我玩了四次,就跌足四次...
最后一次是最严重的... 跌倒了还要被daniel踢过...T_T


呵呵!不知道即使还有机会去玩咯？
那天虽然带来不少的痛,但我玩得还蛮开心的...=p

玩过了skate...
五点,我们去看了new moon...
男主角是很帅啦,
但情情爱爱的戏最好不要预我太多了...haha!