♥ i miss u too ♥

25th dec...i had received a facebook msg tht was sent by her...
honestly,i couldn't find any reason for why should i get mad on her anymore for now...
i miss her...miss her badly...she was my best friend that accompany me for over times n times in my secondary school's time...3 of us...wen,me n amber were the 3 closest friends while we r in form4 n form5...she had gv me a lot of good memories in my high school's life...yet,there was also some "accidents" tht hurt-ed me badly...i shouldn't remember all of these,n i should 4gt all bout these,but i couldn't...

hell yeah,i had make u feel upset...bcause of the trip...tht time my emotion was seriously out of my control...remembering the time in the trip,i was so emotionally n helpless...i dun even know how was the things happened around us...but it had jz get into my mind...n tht time i began to lose control...i knew something that i shouldn't know...altho it wasn't about me,n not related to me,but as a friend,i was like poured by a tong of cold water...suddenly felt like i was an outsider...u r my best friend,but u suddenly bcome as a stranger..it makes me hurt-ed a lot...

you r rite...Christmas is a season to remember the good times we had...
ur msg had remind me n bring me over the past...the times tht we spent for entertainment...
we used to laugh out loudly in the class,tuition n even inside school...we jokes all the times..playing silly things!yea!tht's rite...we r playing silly things all the times in school n even wif our dearly teachers!remembering encik tan kim siang n encik tan choon piau was the 2 teachers who owez play wif us when we r in 5.3...we use to 'shoot' teacher wif some stupid ideas n topics...HAHA!we like to play tht isn't it?n our form teacher,puan salwiyah had taking so much care for us,when we r in the chemistry lab,we weren't paying attention all the lessons,but she jz treat us well...i miss our past...!

"i thought our friendship were strong and firm but it doesn really show the results in the end."
you r wrong...i stil blieve tht our friendship were strong n firm...u can think tht im too naive to say out these words bcuz im the one who started to ignore u as well...n u can also think tht im the stupid tht seems like don't forgive or accept u for over long time...n yet,im just a coward...

tht's no way for u,u shouldn't take the move to put ur ego down,bcause both of us having the same ego,we r both egoistic...i know im not as brave as u to put all these down...friends come n go,tis is wat you told me last time...tht time i was curious tht why cant u jz put some confident in our friendship?why you want to say those things?now i get it...thr is no doubt for a person to say out these words...bcause it is no way for us to maintain our friendship until the end of our life...therefore,we should appreciate wat we have now...n we shouldn't start any wars wif our dearly friends...friends cant last long...we should tolerate wif each other if we truly friend wif each other...
i had tried so hard to forget u,but i failed...during my free time,i like to look at my phone,looking at our school days' pic...we were so vain enuf to take pic all the time...we wont lose any chance to take pic using our phones...in class,in tuition,in school...we did it all the time...we also being called as LESBIAN...haha!cant other ppl understand how close r we?n yet..3 of us r just 'pretty' enough to get into the camera..!
n we like to ignore(boycott la) ppl tht we don't like,gossiping all the times is also one of our hobbies...we hv so many hobbies ya...n as i remember,u like 'blink blink' accessories...

hope tht both of us also dint change much after the one year period...
we had ord lose contact for over 1 year,is it?but,i hv strong feelings tht we r stil the ARE all the time...haha!wat a childish person...jz living in the past,cant get thru the realistic...*laughing at myself*

oh ya...it had been a long time i dint visit to ur blog,n i had 4gt ur blog's name...i was so busy to catch up my games as last time when u know me....im addicted to ran AGAIN...lvling is the only mission in my life...

im asking myself repeatly for the reasons why i write all of these,especially write it in eng...
u know tht my eng is the worst among us...n i was like a china girl who hate eng much as how u hate chinese...but...im here to tel u tht...
i wrote all of these is just for you...i know tht wil b thousands of mistakes,no matter is grammar or words...

ok...i gv up..gv up for my ego,gv up for myself...
i admit tht i had miss u badly too...friends come n go,i nvr suspect how can we been thru all of these,n i wont hoping for any good news such as being friend bek wif u...
goodluck...thanks for giving me good memories n i wil try to rmb all the silly things n fun tht we had...